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Anyways…

Once in a blue moon, every few years, I become awestruck by my usually abhorrent armpits and dote on them and think they’re the best.

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Zombie Pandemic
(I used to play this game a crapton after I graduated university and was looking for a job in 2010. I even wrote some of the area descriptions. I ended up being the #1 player for 3 months…the only thing that curbed my addiction was having to go to Hawaii to visit my grandpa (and I totally stressed about whether I should bring my laptop or not…to think I was dreading going to Hawaii because of it). Even after I stopped, I was #1 for a while yet because I had been so far ahead hehe.
I still have all my wordpad docs from when I played. I listed what each block was, if there was a store - what they were selling and the prices, what each item did, how much it weighed, weapon details, best things to scavenge…it’s crazy looking back at it. I was my own wikipedia.
I think I played solo during my #1 stint, but I joined a group eventually, I’m pretty sure. Even then I didn’t interact much. I’m so antisocial with games…even with minecraft, I’ve been playing the same world for almost 2 years, and I’ve been on public servers a handful of times.
Even though it was beta, even though I was totally exploiting this one flaw, I had fun playing. I’m glad I stopped playing, though. Haven’t played Minecraft in a few months, too, so I hope I can keep it up.
In conclusion, this is why I don’t game.)
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Zombie Pandemic

(I used to play this game a crapton after I graduated university and was looking for a job in 2010. I even wrote some of the area descriptions. I ended up being the #1 player for 3 months…the only thing that curbed my addiction was having to go to Hawaii to visit my grandpa (and I totally stressed about whether I should bring my laptop or not…to think I was dreading going to Hawaii because of it). Even after I stopped, I was #1 for a while yet because I had been so far ahead hehe.

I still have all my wordpad docs from when I played. I listed what each block was, if there was a store - what they were selling and the prices, what each item did, how much it weighed, weapon details, best things to scavenge…it’s crazy looking back at it. I was my own wikipedia.

I think I played solo during my #1 stint, but I joined a group eventually, I’m pretty sure. Even then I didn’t interact much. I’m so antisocial with games…even with minecraft, I’ve been playing the same world for almost 2 years, and I’ve been on public servers a handful of times.

Even though it was beta, even though I was totally exploiting this one flaw, I had fun playing. I’m glad I stopped playing, though. Haven’t played Minecraft in a few months, too, so I hope I can keep it up.

In conclusion, this is why I don’t game.)

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Ferrero Rocher
(When I was younger, the only time we got to eat Ferrero Rocher was during Christmas. It was a high-class chocolate wrapped in gold. I would save the foil and flatten it out like it was gold foil. It’s still the pinnacle of chocolates for me. One of those things I can eat and eat and never get tired of. Guh, I could go for some right now…)
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Ferrero Rocher

(When I was younger, the only time we got to eat Ferrero Rocher was during Christmas. It was a high-class chocolate wrapped in gold. I would save the foil and flatten it out like it was gold foil. It’s still the pinnacle of chocolates for me. One of those things I can eat and eat and never get tired of. Guh, I could go for some right now…)

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"Stop letting people who do so little for you control so much of your mind, feelings, and emotions."

— Will Smith

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"The Universe only became the Universe when it shattered into dust."

— Andrea Gibson (Source: oh, albatross)

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Night on the Galactic Railroad

(Another young late-night venture into anime while everyone else was asleep. I couldn’t have been older than 12. I think it was at the townhouse. It was either on Teletoon (doubt it), Bravo (likely), or Showcase (maybe). I remember being so weirded out, but I couldn’t stop watching. I don’t even remember if it was dubbed or not. I don’t know if I understood it or not. Now that I think of it, I do think I was very aware of the Christian symbolism, just because it was so weird to see that in an anime (I’m surprised that Miyazawa was a Buddhist, and wonder why he would include that symbolism).There was just this overwhelming sense of melancholy throughout the whole film.

Trying to think of it as I remember it as a kid, there was so much I missed, but I took from it a sense of nostalgia you don’t get as an adult.

What I do vividly remember is the song Temo de la Adiauo. Even now listening to it gives me the oddest sensation - melancholy, queer, and something else altogether…ominous?)

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Who is that guy behind CL?
Edit: Answered! It’s Minseok/Xiumin from EXO. Thanks kindly exoticbabycreature (and everyone else who answered) :)

Who is that guy behind CL?

Edit: Answered! It’s Minseok/Xiumin from EXO. Thanks kindly exoticbabycreature (and everyone else who answered) :)

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"…it looks like you spent the day karate-chopping chimney sweeps."

— David Rees, professional pencil sharpener, on writing in pencil left-handed

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Dad Harmonica

My dad playing the harmonica, like a bunch of songs, mostly Christmas songs, just now. I knew he played before, but I’ve only ever heard him a few times. He’s actually really good at it. I thought it was a cd or carollers outside (not that there have been carollers - ever - around our house). Apparently he also plays the ukelele.This is a weird thing to learn about my dad when he’s 67 years old.

It’s bittersweet and melancholy somewhat, but it’s comforting. He plays for my mum. I hope she’s listening.

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Todd Barry
(My favorite stand-up comic. He’s someone I can listen to when I’m depressed. He relieves my anxiety, not heightens it. His voice is a kind of lethargic hypnosis. I listen to a lot of stand-up. There are some that I can only listen to when I’m already happy. There are some I can only listen to when I’m self-loathing. He’s someone I can listen to whenever.
Some favorite bits:
Check with Meal
Alabama
Slop CD
Todd’s Address
Therapist
I also have this weird desire to take some portrait shoots of him.)
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Todd Barry

(My favorite stand-up comic. He’s someone I can listen to when I’m depressed. He relieves my anxiety, not heightens it. His voice is a kind of lethargic hypnosis. I listen to a lot of stand-up. There are some that I can only listen to when I’m already happy. There are some I can only listen to when I’m self-loathing. He’s someone I can listen to whenever.

Some favorite bits:

  • Check with Meal
  • Alabama
  • Slop CD
  • Todd’s Address
  • Therapist

I also have this weird desire to take some portrait shoots of him.)

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Elementary Bathroom

At my elementary, there used to be a really weird bathroom. It had a first floor, but to the side, stairs that led to a second floor. The second  floor was some kind of weird small boiler room - lots of pipes and hissing and general disarray. It also had functioning toilets too. I remember because I used one of those toilets at least once.

Honestly, it was really creepy - like, why was it there? My elementary was only single-storey and wasn’t that big - as far as I know that was the only part that had a second floor. Why would they have a second floor of functioning toilets? That wasn’t the only girls washroom in the school, it’s not like the school was lacking in washrooms. Who else would use those toilets besides weirdos like me? Maybe it was some sort of janitor’s workroom. But there were no female janitors there, ever, so why would it be connected there? Ugh. I’ve creeped myself out.

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Things that pluck my heartstrings

  • People eating - awkwardly but with no reserve, big mouthfuls, hunched over like a prisoner
  • A night snowfall - where the snowflakes drop lazily and slowly, the air is warm but fogs your breath, and the dark night sky looks close enough to touch
  • Purin with caramel
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Something Wicked This Way Comes
(A book given to my mum along with various others, including a Rubix Cube guide - this was the late 90s, and that book had to be from the early 80s. But I was desperate for reading material. While I gave a pass to the Cube guide, Something Wicked became my literary introduction to Ray Bradbury. The Halloween Tree was my first real introduction to Bradbury, and that cartoon has such a similar feeling to SWTWC, I’m surprised I hadn’t realized it earlier.
The first thing that I noticed was the dark, flowery way Bradbury wrote. Beautifully descriptive but ominous. The kind of book you want to read out loud, to hear the words curl around your tongue. The second thing I noticed was how much I related to Will Holloway - we were similar ages, and he had an old janitor for a father. As inconsequential as it seems, this was the first time I’d felt like someone outside of my family understood my relationship with my dad, the repercussions of a father in that position. It was important to me.
I’d read horror novels before. Goosebumps. The Black Cat (a book I bought at the Scholastics Book Fair when I was in 2nd or 3rd grade, which my friend got in trouble for buying instead of me, and he promptly took the fall for - being the coward that I was, I said nothing.) But this was sinister in all its imagery and nostalgia, somehow sweet to the ears but fearful for the heart.)

Something Wicked This Way Comes

(A book given to my mum along with various others, including a Rubix Cube guide - this was the late 90s, and that book had to be from the early 80s. But I was desperate for reading material. While I gave a pass to the Cube guide, Something Wicked became my literary introduction to Ray Bradbury. The Halloween Tree was my first real introduction to Bradbury, and that cartoon has such a similar feeling to SWTWC, I’m surprised I hadn’t realized it earlier.

The first thing that I noticed was the dark, flowery way Bradbury wrote. Beautifully descriptive but ominous. The kind of book you want to read out loud, to hear the words curl around your tongue. The second thing I noticed was how much I related to Will Holloway - we were similar ages, and he had an old janitor for a father. As inconsequential as it seems, this was the first time I’d felt like someone outside of my family understood my relationship with my dad, the repercussions of a father in that position. It was important to me.

I’d read horror novels before. Goosebumps. The Black Cat (a book I bought at the Scholastics Book Fair when I was in 2nd or 3rd grade, which my friend got in trouble for buying instead of me, and he promptly took the fall for - being the coward that I was, I said nothing.) But this was sinister in all its imagery and nostalgia, somehow sweet to the ears but fearful for the heart.)

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"And she was beautiful
Because she refused to taste sadness
Even when that was the only thing she had left to eat."

— i.k.

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Kazuki Kitamura
(Because this guy is sex on legs. When I see him in photoshoots, he looks like he totally knows how hot he is, and I don’t like that, but for some reason I don’t care with him. He kinda looks like a pervert, too, which I also give him a pass for…
A good actor that can go from sexy to goofy at the drop of a hat. I wish he got more leading role parts, but he tends to steal the scene anyways, so it’s okay.
He isn’t always in great shows/movies, but he’s always great in his role, be it major or minor. My favorite role of his is in Anata no Tonari ni Dareka iru. He’s such a creep in it and yet I found myself grinning from ear-to-ear when they’d close up on his face haha. Bonus points for Freeze Me and Perfect Education 5 because….reasons.
The guy seems to enjoy being naked in front of the camera, yet was married for 19 years to his high school sweetheart. They’re not really related, but I just find it an odd juxtaposition. Just like his face and his voice don’t match.
Maybe I’m just a pervert.)
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Kazuki Kitamura

(Because this guy is sex on legs. When I see him in photoshoots, he looks like he totally knows how hot he is, and I don’t like that, but for some reason I don’t care with him. He kinda looks like a pervert, too, which I also give him a pass for…

A good actor that can go from sexy to goofy at the drop of a hat. I wish he got more leading role parts, but he tends to steal the scene anyways, so it’s okay.

He isn’t always in great shows/movies, but he’s always great in his role, be it major or minor. My favorite role of his is in Anata no Tonari ni Dareka iru. He’s such a creep in it and yet I found myself grinning from ear-to-ear when they’d close up on his face haha. Bonus points for Freeze Me and Perfect Education 5 because….reasons.

The guy seems to enjoy being naked in front of the camera, yet was married for 19 years to his high school sweetheart. They’re not really related, but I just find it an odd juxtaposition. Just like his face and his voice don’t match.

Maybe I’m just a pervert.)

Photo: Neko Zamurai Official Page